Another Adventure

Well I landed in Ankara, Turkey 25 hours ago.  What a whirlwind few days it's been.  I am beyond tired and really overwhelmed right now.  My brain and senses are in overdrive.  I think it is going to be a good experience for me- both personally and professionally.  I am not nearly as scared or nervous as I was in April 2007 when I went to Korea.  I did it alone then and I can do it alone this time. Some things I have noticed this time around:

1. I did a better pack, even though the time constraints were similar to those before I moved to Korea

2.  I don't stand out as much here as I did in Korea.  I am not such an obvious foreigner here.

3.  I have a better idea(although not great today) at guessing what I am ordering in a restaurant.  

4.  The TV shows and commericals here baffle my mind as much, if not more, as the ones in Korea did.  I am currently watching, what I hope is a commercial full of little boys playing soccer(or football for the Brits) and one team is dressed as Spiderman and the other team is dressed as Batman.  

5.  I did not arrive in Turkey with an ear infection- so I can actually HEAR!  Thats a good thing!

Well I am going to bed.  My body is slowly crapping out on me right now.

Homework

I am beyond tired- and I like it!  I am in school and I am working full time.  I am procrastinating right now; I should be doing homework but I don't feel like it. I am such a bad student- I am the student I hate to teach.  

Well I just spent 30 mins doing homework and have another hour to go.  Oof.  Off to the races!

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Do or die time

Things are still looking bleak on the job front in Halifax.  Yay.  I can't wait to leave it all behind!  I want some to make a killer offer on this house, so I can just be done with it.  It's sucking the life out of me and has been doing so for 12 years.  I am really not trying to come across as a spoiled brat.  I've spent 12 years being forced to be responsible for a place I don't want and never did.  I've never been allowed to grow up and move on with my life.  Halifax and Green Street are like some kind of life sucking vortex- at least for me.  This is not for me.  Once I am certified, I am shutting down my Canadian bank accounts, selling my car, selling everything I own(with a few exceptions) and handing the keys to my house over to my parents.  It is now time they deal with it, with it's mould, rotten walls and carpets.  I never want to see this house again.  I really mean it.  I am not one to live in one place for very long.  It's making me the most miserable person- no wonder I can't sustain friendships or relationships- how can I when I am miserable and so very unhappy?  I don't think it's fair.  Really and truly not fair to me.  While I am not 100% sure where I'll end up, I'm cool with that.  I need to live as Erin McGrail, wherever that may be.

OK, yesterday was a pain induced rant

Yesterday was a pain induced rant.  I am still pissed about no work but I know it will happen soon.

I have a broken left foot and now I am on some pain killers.  These should kick in soon and I'll be happy once again.  I am hoping that I can sleep tonight- that will be oh so lovely.  

I am going to go make some tea, watch some TV and curl up in bed.

Night all

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Antsy, Angsty, fed up

Still no work.  I am beyond frustrated.  I'm now convinced that I have NOTHING to offer.  What the hell have I been doing with my life the last 12 years?  Wasting my time, expending my energy for what?  For nothing.  I am stuck in  hole of a country, in a hole of a city that has no work.  I have no money, and am drowning in bills that I cannot pay.  THIS is exactly where I wanted to be at 30.  Wow.  All my dreams have come true.  Now I can die a happy woman.  This seriously sucks.  Where is the good karma, man?  I thought that if you do good for the world, you are supposed to paid back?  Well, pay back is LONG OVER DUE. As are my visa bills, condo fees and phone bills.  I at least know that I won't freeze when my power is cut off- we are coming into summer.

Been in Canada for a month

I've been home in Canada for a month.  Can I leave now?  Seriously?   I will be a willing kidnapping victim!

Lost in translation.....

Currently sitting in the Tokyo airport.  Fun stuff,  I am tired, hungry and feeling generally crappy.  I have an ear infection so it is making travelling fun! I want to vomit and have already on the flight.  This is not going to be a good flight home at all!  Arg!  I wish there was a "Beam Me Up Scotty" machine as my friend Chris said. It would be so nice!  I am going to go try to get some food into my system and hopefully I won't barf that up as well!

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