Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Death and life

I am going all existential and shit right now. I am so tired mentally. My skin is so bad right now.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Feeling frustrated and foolish

I am tired.- not physically but mentally. I am drained. I don't know what to do, who to trust or where to go. I am going for a run down by the river. Exercise is not helping me out right now. I am going to turn into a total hermit and not talk to anyone else any more. Adios! I'm dunzo.

Sunday, September 6, 2009


For the last 12 years I have been a homeowner. An unwilling homeowner at that. For the last 4 years I have been fairly responsible for the condo- financially. I can't afford it. Never have and don't really want to. The house was bought as an investment for my university life. I graduated university 9 years ago. I have not lived in Nova Scotia in 4 years and not in Canada for 3. Why do I still own the place? Not really sure. Why do I not sell it? My parents want to keep it. Why do they not take over it? They don't want to. Why am I drowning in debt, living/working in Korea to pay for my parents house in Canada, while my millionaire parents sit pretty in their multi million dollar beach front property? Damned if I know. I am 31, and make pretty decent money- not great but decent. I am able to save a whopping 2 bucks a year. WOO HOO! At this rate I can retire when I am 150 thousand years old BUT i will have a house to retire to. One with mouldy rotten carpets, a bathroom with a giant hole in the wall, a kitchen whose counters are sinking in and cupboards are falling apart and last time I was there was infested with mice; all in a city I never intend to work or live in. Does this make sense to anyone? If it does, would you care to enlighten me. Seriously. Fill me in here. I have banged my head against a wall for far too long and at this point can't afford to waste any more brain cells.