Tears and Stress

So I have spent most of the last week drugged out of my mind and sleeping. The rest of the week I spent uncontrollably crying at work. I am very stressed out and that is not cool. I need to change the situation. As a friend told me "You are a smart woman. You just need to change when you are nice to people and when you are a bitch to people." I thought about it and he has a point. I was mad at first but it made sense. Hearing criticism about your own personality/character is never easy to hear but it is easier when it is from a friend.

So work has me totally freaked out and stressed. I'm not getting into specifics as I know blogs are so widely read and I do not want to screw up the chances for my future. I am not happy and I've got to change my situation. Seriously have to change it. No job should cause that much stress. EVER. I know a lot of people do not always like their jobs but this is just not right.

Infections, fevers and meds oh my!

I am sick. I have medication. It is making me incredibly sleepy and crappy. I can barely function. I passed out at work and was sent home- I am happy the director stood up for me. I had asked yesterday if someone could cover my afternoon class and everyone gave me some lame ass excuse. Thankfully the director stepped up.

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So I recently went to Japan on a 4 day mini-vacation. The KCDC warns that if we feel sick within 7 days of returning we should visit them. Well I have a cold- and I doubt I have the swine flu. BUT I am going to the doctors tomorrow- coupled with this summer cold is an ear infection. I thought that horrific ear operation at age 4 was supposed to cure these horrible ear infections? I suppose not- instead it left gnarly looking scars on the insides of my ears and me cross-eyed from over medicating a 4 year old. YAY! I am grumpy. I need another vacation. Maybe a permanent one from Korea and the crap I associate with it.

Mind Readers

OK so I just spent the last hour crying. Not useful at all. Doesn't make me feel any better. I actually feel worse.

I am tired of people who expect me to be a mind reader. It is hard on the soul, the body and mind. I have officially reached my breaking limit. I have been pushed over my limit. I throw my hands in the air. I am throwing the towel in. I am DUNZO. I can't do this shit any more.

Tokyo

Well i have returned to Korea from a 3 day "mini-vacation" to Tokyo. It was a much needed and restful break. I ate sushi like it was going out of style- and walked around Tokyo for three days. I am dead tired and I love it. I slept like a baby- I have not slept that well since I left Canada in October.

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Vacation?

Is it vacation yet? I am exhausted and stressed. Need a break from work and the kids. We went on a field trip to a farm last week. The kids seemed to enjoy themselves. The farm had some yellow lab puppies and I fell in love. I wanted to dognap one or two of them but I refrained. Even the one who peed on me. The little shit- peed all over me- which to me means that he was just staking his claim on a new owner.

Welcome to June

I am tired. Very tired. Extremely tired. I am going through a small bought of Insomnia. Last night almost did me in. A massive thunder and lightening storm hit right outside my apartment building. I love thunder and lightening storms but this one was huge and loud. And kept me awake for most of the night. I am very tired.

Japan is getting closer and closer and I am looking forward to it. I am going alone and I don't really care. I'd like to travel with a friend but that's life. I need to re-energize. and re-organize my head.